::: Day 10 :::

This morning, Zafran wanted to go to school with his father, so before Muazzam straight to work, he dropped by the school. Hari ni tak nak aku hantar dia beb, nak ayah dia pulak! Through Zafran, ALLAH wants me to relax a bit, no need to be in hurry every morning, so one trip off for me, Thank you ALLAH. So i started to do household chores, phewww...rajinnya!

Muazzam called home at 7.45am right after he sent Zafran to school.

"How is Zafran?" I asked.

"Still crying at school then there is one boy says something to him - 'Zafran hari-hari nangis'! And then Zafran cries more and more even louder"

That was ok to me, as long as he didn't shake the grill!!

::: Day 9 :::

Today, mmm...as usual, Zafran cried again. Dalam hati tetap tak pernah berhenti bertanya "Ya ALLAH, bila la Zafran nak berhenti nangis?" But if this sweet melody that ALLAH wants me to hear everyday, I accept it. ALLAH knows best.

On the way to school, he cried without tears, just like 'humming' bird! I smiled at him then he said "tak nak! tak nak!" Ooo..aku faham la tu, agaknya senyuman aku tadi seperti menganjing dia agaknya.

Sharp at 8.00am we arrived at his school. Makin kuat Zafran nangis, aku ingat makin kuat nangis, makin susah nak masuk pintu gate sekolah, tapi senang je, dia masuk, lambai aku sambil nangis, aku lambai balik then blah. Eh! dalam nangis-nangis, rupanya nak jugak pergi school ye anak mama... ni kes 'malu tapi mahu' la ni! hahahaahah

::: Day 7 :::

Hahahahahah... i laugh first before i write something about Zafran. Ya ALLAH, kelakarnya la anak aku! Yesterday, i asked the teacher, how was Zafran in school? And then the teacher with smiley face answered me;

"Zafran, he is still in the stage to adapt himself with the new environment, it is ok, he will learn it slowly"

Ooo...I responded to the teacher. I just want to know how is he in the class, did he follow you? I asked.

The teacher grinned away and said,

"Sometimes he follows sometimes he just stays beside me and hold my hand. Sometimes he will ask me - mana mama saya? Yesterday, when i taught him how to write, suddenly he touched my chin and asked "ey, mama saya mana?"

Part ni memang aku nak tergelak guling-guling, tapi aku tahan. Ya ALLAH, kelakarnya Zafran!

Zafran jangan buat macam tu dekat cikgu, nanti mama babap kang, baru tahu! Pulas telinga tu, nak tak?!

~~+:: Day 5 ::+~~

This is Zafran when he was 2. Now he is a big boy! Alhamdulillah. Day 5, I would like to begin the whole thing about Zafran usually wakes up  in the morning sharp at 6.30am, very good! I don't have to struggle myself to wake him up. He automatically opens his eyes and wake up andddddd....of course with a long face! Eh, macam miss pulak nak tengok muka Zafran bangun pagi sambil senyum dekat aku, semenjak dia sekolah ni dah takde senyuman tu. Takpe, sabar je la, mana tahu nanti ALLAH bagi balik senyuman tu. Amin.

Muazzam drove him to school. On the way to work, Muazzam called me, 'he is ok, he cries with no tears, bunyi nangis ada je" Kelakar ek, gelagat budak2 pergi sekolah.

So, at 12pm i was at his school to take him home. Amboi sukanya muka Zafran. While we were in the car, he gave me a kiss and said "sayang mama" eh terharu beb aku, rasa nak nangis, tapi kena control sbb nanti mascara cair, habis sememeh! hahahahahahaa

Mama pun sayanggggggggggggggggg sangat Zafran tau!

~~+:: Day 4 ::+~~

After 2 days off (Sat and Sun). Zafran woke up in the morning with long face on Monday (bluessss). I bathed him, he cried a little. Then when he saw his purple uniform, he cried out loud! Eh...rasaku macam berada dalam scene 'KL Gangster' pulak. Berhempas pulas aku nak pakaikan dia uniform tu, sambil kaki dan tangan dia bersilat dengan aku, aku hampir2 nak bersilat jugak, Ya ALLAH! Then he screamed "Tolong, tolong, tolong saya! tolong saya!!" Ada ke scene ni dalam KL Gangster?! Mama nak pakaikan zafran baju je, kenapa sampai nak mintak tolong...? Yang boleh tolong Zafran mama je tau tak? Kataku lembut, memujuk, tapi kelakar pulak ayat aku memujuk tu. Did i use a correct sentence or not? kekekeke


Tapi bila sampai sekolah, ok je dia. Saja nak gurau-gurau, nak main-main dengan aku la tu. Terfikir jugak aku, maybe ALLAH nak bermain dengan aku (maksudnya menguji aku la) so Zafran la perantaranya dalam permainan itu. Ya ALLAH, I enjoyed the play. Thank you ALLAH!

~~+:: Day 3 ::+~~

Third day, Ya ALLAH... Zafran cried again. But when he reached at school, he suddenly quiet and entered the door with no tears. Alhamdulillah. Thank you ALLAH! I am waiting patiently for what HE wants to give me for tomorrow, hopefully something good again, if not, i will keep on praying and will never stop praying.

I can see a not so cheerful self of Zafran everytime i picked him up from school. When at home, he behaved like a 'true' gentleman hahaha! I guess he must be thinking "am i being so naughty? that's why momma and ayah send me to school? So i must behave myself today, so that tomorrow they will not send me there anymore!"

Anak mama tak nakal...this is just a step for you to see how different the world outside there baby... Tak percaya? Nanti bila besar for sure Zafran akan tahu kenapa mama dengan ayah hantar Zafran pergi sekolah! Right now, when i talk to him about school, i tell him why he must go to school, he seems to understand everything i said, but....

"TAPI, TAPI SAYA TAK NAK SEKOLAH" He suddenly whispered to me softly!

Habis tu camno? Mama tunggu sampai Zafran boleh terima apa itu sekolah. When Muazzam and i went to school to pick him up, we can see how much he is excited to go home. Then Muazzam told him "Zafran, amin teacher dulu sebelum balik..."

Then he, "ey..ey..ey..salam, saya nak balik.."

ALLAHUAKBAR anak aku! Selamba ok...panggil teacher macam tu, takpe sabar..sabar..baru third day kan.

Seriously, deep deep deep inside my heart, I want him to be with me 24-7, but we can't refuse something that is set in front of us, phases of life that we must go through and that's how the life works kan! Ok la Zafran, cheer up baby! Mama will always pray for you no matter what.

~~+:: Day 2 ::+~~

New test for the second day. Alhamdulillah. Zafran... he is a good boy...very...today! He didn't cry...sayang mama. When we were in the car, on the way to school, his father talked to him "Zafran kita nak pergi sekolah Zafran tau" Then he answered politely,

"TAPI, TAPI, TAPI SAYA TAK MAHU PERGI SEKOLAH..."

Hahahahaahahahaha begitu la rupa aku gelak dalam hati ketika itu. Comel je jawapan dia! Then his father asked (bapak yang kuat menyakat) "Why you don't want to go to school?" Then he answered the same, a bit different, and yet still the same meaning,

"TAPI SAYA TAK NAK SEKOLAH"

I just relaxed at the back and be a good ear to the father and son punya drama!

Thank you ALLAH for making all easy for the second day!

~~+:: First Day ::+~~

Alhamdulillah. Today Zafran woke up in the morning as a preschooler! How time flies huh?! I remember last time he was in my arm, small, and now he is 5 years old and making a step to school with tears streaked his face (stop here first, i will brief more after this). Ya ALLAH... then I knew, it wasn't easy. It wasn't easy just like when i tried to wean him off mother's milk last time and it wasn't easy too just like when i tried to do toilet train for him last time (just did, 4 months ago). Life is full of 3in1 set of test, and it is not easy just like when you do some testing on the microphone, testing..testing..1, 2, 3.....! Bingo!

Day one to three, according to the Principal of Little Muslims Prima Pintar Kindergarten, all the students will have to experience the orientation day. Yes, it was a really, really 'orientation day', when i heard voices of little muslims crying and calling their parents. So cute! Deep inside my heart, i love to see the scenario actually, well, because, maybe, that time...Zafran, he seemed ok, he was a disciplined, good and gentleman (can i say this? hahahaa) He didn't cry at all, he played legos, balls and some other toys there.

Orientation started at 8am, when the teacher called out all the students to queue in rows according to their ages. Then i saw Zafran a bit panicked. There goes a story about Zafran's first day at school. He didn't want to join the queue things, he isolated himself at the walllll...because his father was standing at the wall. And Muazzam told me to get out of the class first, then followed by him later on. Sebagai isteri yang solehah (ehemm) terus la keluar dari pintu sekolah aku. All the parents waited outside of the class then the teacher closed the grill. I peeped through the window and i saw Zafran didn't realize that his father wasn't there anymore, he managed to sneak out of the class quietly through back door. And then, a time for us to leave the school... the moment of truth... then we heard;

"Yayahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......" Zafran screamed out loud. As if we were in the movie Scream jek! Then he shook the grill with all the energy he has and all the students including the parents were focused at him and suddenly all quiet, maybe diaorang terkejut kot, terkejut tahap gorilla tercekik buah durian!!! I understood, from the reaction of all people there, i knew that, that was the first time they have a chance to see the real 'heavydrama'!! Bergegar satu sekolah tu wa cakap lu dek goncangan yang kuat from the hands (bukan the hands that rocks the cradle tau!) from the hands that rocks the grill! That time i just whispered to my heart, "Ya ALLAH, anak aku..." then prayed  "Ya ALLAH, permudahkanlah segala urusan Zafran dan cikgu-cikgu di sekolah ni, amin"

I believe the school is made of strong bricks and plus the skillful contractor workers who built it...if not, I can see back how the Berlin Wall breaks down, part 2. Kelakar gila... aku pun terkejut dengan kekuatan yang agak luar biasa dimiliki oleh my little 'superhero' tu. Mana-mana budak yang menangis dalam kelas tu boleh diam automatically bila dengar Zafran menjerit dan menangis, hahahaahahahahaha!! Kau ingat kau sorang je boleh nangis, aku pun boleh nangis lagi power beb!! Amekaw...semua diam! Hahahahaha

Then after one hour, Muazzam told me to pass by the school to see/hear if Zafran is still crying or not (saje betul bapak dia ni ek...bab menyakat nombor 1). The school was so calm and quiet (aikk..dah ok la tu, alhamdulillah). Muazzam peeped through the gate, then he heard "yayah! yayah! masuk laa..". Ado laa...sekali tu dia rupanya memang dah standby dekat tingkap daaa...sekali tu dia yang ngintai bapak dia balik daaaa....lain orang yang nak diintai, lain orang yang kena intai! I bet, he must be saying this "Amboi..amboi ayah aku...assalamualaikum, ngintai sape tu, ngintai Teacher ke? Yuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu" > ini dialog mmg aku memandai reka2 sendiri!

Kelakar betul si Zafran. Sharp at 12pm, we arrived at school to pick him up. Again, he cried, sedih woooo...mama dengan ayah aku tinggalkan aku tadi, katanya dalam hati barangkali. Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..... semua orang senyum je tengok Zafran!

Bye-bye school, see you tomorrow!