:: 20 Days in school ::

Checked the calendar, ooo...Zafran already spent his time in school for 20 days (setelah ditolak public holiday and mc). Zafran had to take medical leave because of skin infection, the doctor said it was common thing for kids who just started schooling or staying in nursery (it seemed plausible to me, at least i have to accept the fact that Zafran is out of my halfday control and i have to accept this as a test from ALLAH). Life is full of 3 in 1 test... I like to repeat this again and again. When Zafran had that skin infection, he also had flu and guess what?! He isn't an easy person to take medicine and as if we have to go to the battle and fight until all the enemies fall on the ground! But alhamdulillah, everything is back on track now and Zafran is free from the infection.

This morning, I have joined Maulidur Rasul parade organized by the kindy. But...there is always a but, while i was stood by the gate to wait for the little caliphs to start the parade, with the video cam on my right hand, i managed to zoom at Zafran. He didn't notice me at all at first, then i started to vc him from the gate and then while i was busy adjusting the vc, i lost him! Where was Zafran? Suddenly...

"Mama, mama, jom balik!" there he was, in front of me, pulled my jubah. The parade was not even started yet Zafran, mana boleh balik! Then teacher took him back to the group while i have to hide myself in the car. Buat-buat nak balik la, but i really want to join the parade though... tapi kalau Zafran nampak for sure dia tak mahu join parade tu, for sure dia akan duduk sebelah aku je kann..

To make it short, i joined the parade no matter what Zafran will look like. As expected, Zafran...he was so funny, every minute he will look back hoping that i won't leave the parade (actually leave him not the parade!). Kejap2 kang ada depan aku, aku tolak dia masuk group balik, bila lupa sekejap, ada depan aku balik, aku tolak dia balik. Hahahaahahah kelakar betul Zafran!

::: Day 10 :::

This morning, Zafran wanted to go to school with his father, so before Muazzam straight to work, he dropped by the school. Hari ni tak nak aku hantar dia beb, nak ayah dia pulak! Through Zafran, ALLAH wants me to relax a bit, no need to be in hurry every morning, so one trip off for me, Thank you ALLAH. So i started to do household chores, phewww...rajinnya!

Muazzam called home at 7.45am right after he sent Zafran to school.

"How is Zafran?" I asked.

"Still crying at school then there is one boy says something to him - 'Zafran hari-hari nangis'! And then Zafran cries more and more even louder"

That was ok to me, as long as he didn't shake the grill!!

::: Day 9 :::

Today, mmm...as usual, Zafran cried again. Dalam hati tetap tak pernah berhenti bertanya "Ya ALLAH, bila la Zafran nak berhenti nangis?" But if this sweet melody that ALLAH wants me to hear everyday, I accept it. ALLAH knows best.

On the way to school, he cried without tears, just like 'humming' bird! I smiled at him then he said "tak nak! tak nak!" Ooo..aku faham la tu, agaknya senyuman aku tadi seperti menganjing dia agaknya.

Sharp at 8.00am we arrived at his school. Makin kuat Zafran nangis, aku ingat makin kuat nangis, makin susah nak masuk pintu gate sekolah, tapi senang je, dia masuk, lambai aku sambil nangis, aku lambai balik then blah. Eh! dalam nangis-nangis, rupanya nak jugak pergi school ye anak mama... ni kes 'malu tapi mahu' la ni! hahahaahah

::: Day 7 :::

Hahahahahah... i laugh first before i write something about Zafran. Ya ALLAH, kelakarnya la anak aku! Yesterday, i asked the teacher, how was Zafran in school? And then the teacher with smiley face answered me;

"Zafran, he is still in the stage to adapt himself with the new environment, it is ok, he will learn it slowly"

Ooo...I responded to the teacher. I just want to know how is he in the class, did he follow you? I asked.

The teacher grinned away and said,

"Sometimes he follows sometimes he just stays beside me and hold my hand. Sometimes he will ask me - mana mama saya? Yesterday, when i taught him how to write, suddenly he touched my chin and asked "ey, mama saya mana?"

Part ni memang aku nak tergelak guling-guling, tapi aku tahan. Ya ALLAH, kelakarnya Zafran!

Zafran jangan buat macam tu dekat cikgu, nanti mama babap kang, baru tahu! Pulas telinga tu, nak tak?!

~~+:: Day 5 ::+~~

This is Zafran when he was 2. Now he is a big boy! Alhamdulillah. Day 5, I would like to begin the whole thing about Zafran usually wakes up  in the morning sharp at 6.30am, very good! I don't have to struggle myself to wake him up. He automatically opens his eyes and wake up andddddd....of course with a long face! Eh, macam miss pulak nak tengok muka Zafran bangun pagi sambil senyum dekat aku, semenjak dia sekolah ni dah takde senyuman tu. Takpe, sabar je la, mana tahu nanti ALLAH bagi balik senyuman tu. Amin.

Muazzam drove him to school. On the way to work, Muazzam called me, 'he is ok, he cries with no tears, bunyi nangis ada je" Kelakar ek, gelagat budak2 pergi sekolah.

So, at 12pm i was at his school to take him home. Amboi sukanya muka Zafran. While we were in the car, he gave me a kiss and said "sayang mama" eh terharu beb aku, rasa nak nangis, tapi kena control sbb nanti mascara cair, habis sememeh! hahahahahahaa

Mama pun sayanggggggggggggggggg sangat Zafran tau!

~~+:: Day 4 ::+~~

After 2 days off (Sat and Sun). Zafran woke up in the morning with long face on Monday (bluessss). I bathed him, he cried a little. Then when he saw his purple uniform, he cried out loud! Eh...rasaku macam berada dalam scene 'KL Gangster' pulak. Berhempas pulas aku nak pakaikan dia uniform tu, sambil kaki dan tangan dia bersilat dengan aku, aku hampir2 nak bersilat jugak, Ya ALLAH! Then he screamed "Tolong, tolong, tolong saya! tolong saya!!" Ada ke scene ni dalam KL Gangster?! Mama nak pakaikan zafran baju je, kenapa sampai nak mintak tolong...? Yang boleh tolong Zafran mama je tau tak? Kataku lembut, memujuk, tapi kelakar pulak ayat aku memujuk tu. Did i use a correct sentence or not? kekekeke


Tapi bila sampai sekolah, ok je dia. Saja nak gurau-gurau, nak main-main dengan aku la tu. Terfikir jugak aku, maybe ALLAH nak bermain dengan aku (maksudnya menguji aku la) so Zafran la perantaranya dalam permainan itu. Ya ALLAH, I enjoyed the play. Thank you ALLAH!

~~+:: Day 3 ::+~~

Third day, Ya ALLAH... Zafran cried again. But when he reached at school, he suddenly quiet and entered the door with no tears. Alhamdulillah. Thank you ALLAH! I am waiting patiently for what HE wants to give me for tomorrow, hopefully something good again, if not, i will keep on praying and will never stop praying.

I can see a not so cheerful self of Zafran everytime i picked him up from school. When at home, he behaved like a 'true' gentleman hahaha! I guess he must be thinking "am i being so naughty? that's why momma and ayah send me to school? So i must behave myself today, so that tomorrow they will not send me there anymore!"

Anak mama tak nakal...this is just a step for you to see how different the world outside there baby... Tak percaya? Nanti bila besar for sure Zafran akan tahu kenapa mama dengan ayah hantar Zafran pergi sekolah! Right now, when i talk to him about school, i tell him why he must go to school, he seems to understand everything i said, but....

"TAPI, TAPI SAYA TAK NAK SEKOLAH" He suddenly whispered to me softly!

Habis tu camno? Mama tunggu sampai Zafran boleh terima apa itu sekolah. When Muazzam and i went to school to pick him up, we can see how much he is excited to go home. Then Muazzam told him "Zafran, amin teacher dulu sebelum balik..."

Then he, "ey..ey..ey..salam, saya nak balik.."

ALLAHUAKBAR anak aku! Selamba ok...panggil teacher macam tu, takpe sabar..sabar..baru third day kan.

Seriously, deep deep deep inside my heart, I want him to be with me 24-7, but we can't refuse something that is set in front of us, phases of life that we must go through and that's how the life works kan! Ok la Zafran, cheer up baby! Mama will always pray for you no matter what.